guns can't kill what soldiers can't see

OH HEY

2009-11-20T09:37:07Z

TIS me
being a raging drug-induced insomniac.
wellllll.
it's okay, because i don't have work tomorrow, thank heavens, and this actually is how i'd like to be spending my time.

everyone around me seems to be coupling off.

couple couple. a couple o' couples.

i've got ... music. yay! at the moment i'm really into early 90s alt-rock; basically the pixies and the breeders. i sort of dive into the genre, reading as much as i can while downloading and watching videos & stuff, burning cds so i can listen as i bike since my ipod decided to cripple itself.

the bicycle is my mode of transport, rain or shine... i'm concerned about snow, though. it's been a warm november, but come winterwinter i will need to get to work somehow, and biking just might be out of the question.

oh weary dreary life.

at least i've got this computer, which is actually awesome since mine is in the shop getting madfixed & such. at least when roommates are otherwise occupied with, oh i guess, a significant other i get the computator.

pretty music is pretty, but some time i will need a warm body to snuggle up to. i just don't know when that will be.

or who it will be. mrr.

i love to eat lollipops. halloween brings awesomeness.

2009-11-11T05:20:49Z

i really hate my job.
it is difficult to describe how much i hate my job.
working fulltime at a shitty minimum wage job is the most awful shit evaaarrrr,
so i can't wait till after christmas when i will get a new one.
--i'm not gettin one till then because places hiring now are going to be seasonal only, so i would just have to get another job in january or something, and that's no fun. in addition, i am going away for a week around christmastime so it wouldn't be good to get a new job now/ leave the one i have. i may hate my job at timothy's as a coffee labourer (as i like to call it), but i will be going to THE BAHAMAS for Christmas :)
until then i have to work full time, so i have to go to bed to wake up early for m 9.5 hour shift tomorrow, LAAAAMMMMMMEEEEE.

what journal?

2009-11-03T01:32:26Z

whaaaat's good in the hood.
i haven't checked livejournal in SOOO long.
i do still love it though. and yalls, my lj friends who i still do care for.

things:
-i am moved out
-i work full time at Timothy's, a coffee place like Second Cup or Starbucks
-i don't go to school
-i have a life to sort out!

partaying it up in t-town!

trying to have some fun and not grow up.

19!

2009-05-22T06:56:02Z

Happy Birthday to Me. I'm now 19!
Hurray for legal drinking age.
Finally. It was about time.

EL JAY OVERHAUL

2009-04-23T08:59:54Z

i've decided to revamp my lj!
i miss being all obsessed with it, and i feel that if i reformat my journal, which i haven't changed in YEARS, get some new userpics, maybe even a new username, all will be much awesomer.

ps info:
-i'm taking a year off school because i hate it and am failing most of my classes because i literally never do any work
-my mother keeps dragging me to the doctor and it's driving me crazy. well, it was one time, but she won't leave me alone.

okay there are things i'm supposed to be doing right now, like study for my sociology exam tomorrow, so i'll peace out.

also i'm going to a blue jays game tomorrow with my friend, it will be funtimes.

el jay

2009-03-18T09:03:26Z

I wish I updated my LJ more often.
looking back on the days when LJ was my NUMBER ONE site makes me chuckle.
it all stems from the 'hermit' of my username; when I moved to Calgary I really didn't have a great time making friends, or once I did meet people I didn't feel as though I could be myself. if you will.
so yay LJ, I found people who were awesome and vented a lot about life.

and then things changed again when I moved back to Toronto.
I got so immersed in my social life, catching up on the badass activities that my friends had been getting up to in the time I'd been gone. making a lot of new friends, gettin' in on the SCENES, ahahkillme.

there is a point to this- in the summer my loyalty changed to the evil ways of PURERAVE.
don't worry, I hadn't heard of it either. its own description:
Purerave is an online community of ravers, clubbers and party-goers. It allows for the unintrusive interaction of its members via instant messaging, galleries, journals, reviews, event listings, poetry and much more.

PR is sort of like facebook for ravers, as I like to think of it (I'm not a raver though, let's clarify), where a lot of people who are friends in REAL LIFE interact (in that way it's most like facebook). journal posts are generally short, lots of memes are involved, people complain about random shit and it's pretty low-key.

WHEREAS on LJ I always feel as though I need to impress someone. I know this makes no sense.

in conclusion:
I miss the LJ days, but I acknowledge things aren't the same anymore-- maybe I need a new username?

instead of maddethehermit i can be maddethebatshitcrazysleepdeprivedtool

AH

2009-03-08T08:08:27Z

I AM GOING TO BONNAROO!

I WILL MAKE IT HAPPEN.
THERE ARE FIVE PEOPLE GOING IN A VAN AND I WOULD BE THE 6TH, FUCK I'M EXCITED!!

the lineup is incredible; i'm most excited for:

yeah yeah yeahs
girl talk
mgmt
crystal castles
the decemberists

BUT THEN WHEN YOU THINK THAT'S COOL:

okkervil river
kaki king
bruce springsteen
snoop dogg
neko case
jenny lewis
tv on the radio
wilco

and the list goes on and on.

but yeah, ballin'.

pity meeee

2009-02-12T02:56:37Z

guysss i forgot how awfully shitty it is to be sick.

it's been so long since i was sick with something other than a cold, but now i've got the fever thing, lack of appetite, variation of chils/mad sweating... basically death stuff. but then also the cold symptoms, like phlegm and fuzzy-headedness.

normally i wouldn't complain so much, but it's come at pretty much the worst time ever; it's the week before reading week and i've had so much fucking work to do. i wish essays could evaporate.

Um

2008-12-11T22:14:45Z

So I have my philosophy december exam tomorrow at 2.

I haven't started studying, and I'm at my friend's house.

We went to bed after 5 this morning and slept till 2.

Today my friend Aisling called me and offered me a spare ticket to Stars tonight, and I turned her down.

SELF-CONSTRAINT, MY FRIENDS, I CAN HAS IT.

Lol, overall, LOL.

two doses

2008-11-21T11:44:15Z

two doses of crack later
and i've still got nothing.
i tried this time.
i actually did try this time.
this time i read some philosophy, i really did think about it.
i really did read the whole article, pondered, contemplated.
and though i have nothing to show for it
no essay to hand in
(yet again)
i'm not ashamed, because i actually got something out of this night.
even if that something can't be graded and printed out on a diploma.

oBAM!a

2008-11-05T06:30:18Z

what a great night :)
there's nothing like celebrating obama's victory like a cheers and a beer with friends at a bar in kensington market, of course with the results being announced by stephen colbert and jon stewart.
things are looking awesome.

beat

2008-10-28T06:56:50Z

i've become obsessed with beat.
beat generation.
i wish i could be a beatnik.
beat: Beat was slang for "beaten down" or downtrodden, but to Kerouac, it symbolized being at the bottom and looking up.
beat is being at the bottom and looking up.
BEAT.

allen ginsberg.
jack kerouac.
william s burroughs.
the list goes on.
the beat goes on.

beat.
geniuses.

celebrated non-conformity and spontaneous creativity

thank you sonny and cher, you unintentionally helped beat.

beatnik baby.

fail

2008-10-28T06:17:05Z

fail # 34327: becoming friends with your ex.

the ex that you still love.

truefact

2008-09-19T18:00:07Z

you can't reason with a zombie.
you just can't!

remember

2008-09-17T20:08:15Z

public transit is a glorious place. made the most intense connection i have ever made with a stranger today, with a boy. a lost freckly young european man on the bloor blue line. didn't know his name, didn't know where he was from.
gave him directions- he was going to islington- royal york and islington- who knows? sat down behind me when the bus finally arrived. what- is it already 2:07? i can't believe i missed bloor st.- i'm getting off at wellesley!
he approaches me.. where is this guy from?
...
and now we're on the bus.
he squeezes my shoulder- was it my upper arm? - i remove my headphones (mgmt). his eyes are red, welling up with- tears? more about where he's going... and then -
"i made a mistake.
"i made a mistake in my life.
"i made a mistake tonight".
and there in front of me, this grown man, only a few years older than myself, is actually crying. i reassure him about directions, make sure he knows that he can ask the bus driver if he's lost.
but now we've arrived at bedford!
i have to get off- i tell this to my new friend.
we hug.
i hug him and he hugs me back.
"you're going to be fine," i tell him.
"you're going to be fine."

riddle me this, canada

2008-08-29T14:33:51Z

where is our barack obama?

I'm in

2008-07-28T12:21:17Z

I got into all of the courses I wanted for my first year at U of T.

At the moment I'm technically majoring in sociology with a minor in english and a minor in philosophy, but that's just being technical.
I also wanted to take Anthropology, Biology, and Poli-Sci, but you can only fit so much into a schedule.

I'm taking--
JEF100Y1 - Western Tradition (English)
PHL100Y1 - Intro to Philosophy
TUT 2501
SOC101Y1 - Intro Sociology
TRN170Y1 - Ethics & Creative Imagination
TRN171Y1 - Ethics & Public Sphere

The last 2 courses are part of my Ethics Law and Society program and are seminar courses with 25 people- sweet.

bllleeeerrrrr

2008-06-12T07:24:58Z

cho lj world
tomorrow i'm graduating!
it's this whole deal where we all wear white and endure a 3 hr ceremony thing.
boring/exciting at the same time.
also, i got into this special program at uniiiiii, the trinity one programme, ethics stream. i was on the waiting list for international relations but eff that. chillin'! i have to pretend that i know something about law? meh.
okay pce, i rly need to sleep.

I should be sleeping

2008-06-01T04:59:35Z

I love the feeling of smooth freshly-shaved legs on bed sheets -- my own.
Tomorrow I have to wake up at quarter to 6 to go on a dumb bike ride. I'm going to be so tired. I'm tired even now.

damnit mexico!

2008-04-23T05:35:05Z

http://ca.news.yahoo.com/s/capress/080422/national/mexico_cda_prisoner

I heard this Canadian woman, Brenda Martin, on a CBC radio interview last month and it was really sad. She's (in most people's opinion) wrongly accused of being involved in some internet scam, and she's been in this Mexican jail for 2 years already and she actually wants to die, she was openly crying on-air during the interview, it made me upset. Srsly, Mexico!

Peace Out

2008-03-08T05:17:07Z

Peace out T-Town, LJ, etc. I'm heading to England in a few hours.
It'll be nice to get out of the dreariness of Toronto winter + school + all that other shit I don't feel like talking about in detail at this time. Have a good one, but don't get too out of control while I'm gone. Bah.
Alright, I'm out.
Slash, before I go, I need to tell you that I saw the most incredible movie tonight at Clara's-- METROPOLIS, a 1927 German silent film that was really really good. Rent it.

It's intense.

Glam Rock <3

2008-02-29T21:59:25Z

David Bowie, Iggy Pop, Lou Reed
Glam Rock Triple Threat

And so he's not left out...

Marc Bolan of T.Rex fame.

at least tomorrow's friday

2008-02-15T04:56:38Z

valentine's day is fucking lame.

that is all.

The inevitable...

2007-12-12T06:31:48Z

By the end of the week I need to apply to at least 3 Ontario Universities.
These are what I've got, in no particular order:

-University of Toronto - Toronto
-University of Guelph- Guelph
-Carleton University- Ottawa
-Ryerson University- Toronto
-McMaster University- Hamilton
-Trent University- Peterborough
-York University- Toronto (okay this one is last on purpose)

But I also have out-of-province schools that are higher on the list:
- Dalhousie University- Halifax, Nova Scotia
- University of Victoria- Victoria, British Columbia

My first pick is Dalhousie, even though I don't have any Halifax connections.
I don't know what program I'd go into, but it would be Arts.
Anyone a university genius? Any horror stories? Know which ones would be a baaad idea?

Music

2007-12-07T02:34:22Z

1.Favorite band?
Sleater-Kinney

2.Top 5 bands?
1. Sleater-Kinney
2. Tegan and Sara
3. The New Pornographers
4. Stars
5. Metric. for the sake of simplicity.

3. What are your favorite albums of your Top 5?
1. One Beat. Then The Woods and Dig Me Out.
2. The Con is my current fave.
3. Twin Cinema, with Challengers in a close second.
4. Set Yourself on Fire, followed by In Our Bedroom After the War.
5. Live it Out.

4. What are your favorite songs of those albums?
1. One Beat: One Beat, Light Rail Coyote, Step Aside.
2. The Con: Dark Come Soon, Back In Your Head, Call It Off.
3. Twin Cinema: Three or Four, These Are the Fables, The Jessica Numbers.
Challengers: Mutiny I Promise You
4. Set Yourself On Fire: Your Ex-Lover Is Dead, Ageless Beauty, Reunion.
In Our Bedroom: The Beginning After the End, The Night Starts Here, TAKE ME TO THE RIOT.
5. Live it Out: Monster Hospital, Ending Start, Empty.

5. Have you seen any of them live?
Tegan and Sara, The New Pornographers, Stars.

6. Who have you liked the longest?
Tegan and Sara.

7. Favorite members?
I'm actually obsessed with Tegan and Sara, Carrie Brownstein of S-K, Emily Haines from Metric, and from Stars I love the Torquil Campbell/ Amy Millan duo.

What's your favorite genre?
Indie rock, but I don't be hating anything in partic.

9.Other bands you like?
Elliott Smith, Immaculate Machine, Feist, Cat Power, The Unicorns, The Beatles, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Arcade Fire, The Organ, The Shins, The Decemberists, Final Fantasy, Girl Talk, Modest Mouse, Islands, The Gossip.

10. What's your all time favorite song?
I don't have one.

11. How many concerts have you been to?
7

12. What bands?
The New Pornographers with Immaculate Machine, Emily Haines, Feist with Chad VanGaalen, Cat Power, Tegan and Sara, Stars. And I went to a festival that had the New Pornographers, Tegan and Sara, The Dears, Bad Brains and Bedouin Soundclash.

13.Favorite concert?
That's tricky. The first, New Pornos, totally blew me away, esp because it was so loud. Tegan and Sara were incredible because they just are, and I was standing right at the stage. My last, Stars was really intense and I had a lot of friends with me.

14.What was your first concert and when was it?
The New Pornographers .... like last year.

15. What was the last concert you went to and when was it?
Stars, 2 weeks ago.

16. Next concert?
Who knows.

17. What's the best band live?
T&S, New Pornos, Stars.

18. Best concert buddy?
I don't know. I've been to a lot of shows alone :(

19. Worst concert experience?
We had to wait for a million years for Stars to come on, but it was worth it when they did.
Oh, and I lost the T&S tickets beforehand.

20. Ever meet the band?
I've met AC Newman from the New Pornographers, Kathryn Calder from the New Pornographers and Immaculate Machine, and Sara Quin.

21. Best opening band?
Immaculate Machine for New Pornographers, and Chad VanGaalen for Feist.

22.Worst opening band?
TALL FIRS for Emily Haines were completely horrid. Flash Lightning for Stars were on the lame side.

23. Most money spent on tickets.
Cat Power; damn you over $40.

24. If you could see ANY band/singer live, which one would you choose?
Sleater-Kinney! But Yeah Yeah Yeahs would be sick too.

-CDs-

25.How many CDs do you own?
A good amount.

26. Are they in good condition?
Mostly.

27. Do you keep them in their case?
I keep them in those booky things.

28.How do you usually clean a CD?
I don't.

29. Do you have a stereo?
Jeah, with just CD/radio.

30.How many CDs can it fit?
One.

31.What CDs are in there now?
Stars EP thing that was free :)

32. Do you buy CDs or burn them?
Both.

33. Does your car have a stereo?
I don't have a car.

34.First CD ever bought?
I don't know... but first received/owned was THE MOFFATS. And then Savage Garden and Christina Aguilera.

35. Last CD bought?
In Our Bedroom After the War- Stars. And technically I just bought So Jealous too, for someone else.

-MP3-

36.Do you own an MP3 player?
Yes. thank goodness.

37. What is it?
Le nouveau iPod classic.

38.How many songs are on it?
3000 ish?

39. Do you use it everyday?
Basically.

40. What is the longest song on it?
On iTunes... I have an entire S-K show that is 1:54:18.

41. What is the shortest song on it?
Modest Mouse- Horn Intro, 10 seconds.

42. What song has the largest play count?
Well.. It's prolly inaccurate, but
Dark Come Soon- T&S at 22

41. What song has the smallest play count?
Yet to be heard songs.

42.First Artist?
ABBA

43. Last Artist?
50 Cent

44.How Many Playlists do you have?
5

45. Put your iTunes on shuffle: What song comes up?
End Of You- Sleater-Kinney

46. What does that song make you think of?
HOMER'S THE ODYSSEY. OH GOSH. GRADE 10 ENGLISH.

47. Press the random/next button 5 times: What songs come up?
Keep on Runnin'- Cat Power
Combat Baby- Metric
Happiness- Elliott Smith
No I In Threesome- Interpol
The Fox- Sleater-Kinney

48. When's the last time these songs were played?
The Fox was last played a month ago.

49. Press shuffle/random AGAIN. What's your favorite lyric from that song?
"Had you been thinking that you were all alone while I still thought of you?" From Silver Road by Sarah Harmer.